can-i-give-up-now-please:

It feels so wrong to be alive. To still be here after all the times I thought I wouldn’t make it. After all the plans, the urges and attempts and the complete and utter desperation that repeatedly engulfs me.

I can’t make sense of the fact that I am still alive 11.04.19

imjustascaredlilgirl:

infpisme:

myblissfulsuicide:

You start to feel so drained when you constantly reach out for help and no one gives you their hand.

poetryatmost:

“I tried so hard to keep loving you- I really did. There were so many times that I stayed when I should have left.”

— Poetry At Most, Things I Should Have Said

furiousgoldfish:

“You were forcing me to feel guilty about having wounds, you pretended my emotions weren’t real, you dramatized your most tiny problems until they looked more important than my whole life struggles, you punished me over and over again for “not following your rules” and you had the fucking nerve to pretend that I was the toxic one.”

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furiousgoldfish:

you don’t have to prove that someone is abusive in order to cut them out of your life, if they’re wasting your time and energy, draining you, making you feel miserable, putting way less effort in communicating than you are, blocking your thoughts and opinions, triggering you, making you cry, causing you pain, making you feel awful about yourself - you can cut them off with no further reason needed “I need different things in life right now” is a reason enough.

poetryatmost:

“Even after he stabbed me in the back, I kept rambling on- apologizing for my blood on his hands.”

— Poetry At Most

furiousgoldfish:

your abuser could have gone thru life without abusing you. this was an option all along. they didn’t have to hurt you, they didn’t have to be cruel, they didn’t have to declare themselves an authority for what is and isn’t good for you and decide that abuse is what you deserve, they didn’t have to manipulate you, they didn’t have to lie to you, they didn’t have to insult, criticize or humiliate you, they didn’t have to control you, they didn’t have to crush your self confidence, they didn’t have to scare or hit or push or torture or gaslight you, they didn’t have to do any of it. they could have gone thru their life without doing it. nobody forced them to do it. it was their own decision to do those things. they are the sole person responsible for doing all of it. they would have lost nothing if they didn’t do those things. it wouldn’t take anything away from their life not to destroy yours. hold. them. responsible.

dis-grace-ful23:

“The first mistake I made was loving you more than I loved myself, I put your needs and feelings before mine, and in the end I was left alone and empty.”

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ssnowflake:

ssnowflake: